Some things in life end sooner even before we realize how and when it started. I keep wondering why these things happen in life and keep thinking for reasons. I know that i sound silly thinking for reasons, but i couldn't help it because these instances cause a lot of disturbances in ones life and families. No matter what happen, whatever disturbances... life doesn't stop, it just goes on and you get busy to live your life.
The scratches get mended as time passes by and we tend to live in the present and try to forget the past, but somewhere deep down the heart i keep asking myself ...
is it easy to disregard the past ?
is it easy to forget the bitter feelings ?
is it so simple to forgive ?
Again and again i have asked these questions to myself and i got no answers. I wish this would have been just a dream, just a mere dream and nothing more. I thought about this over and over again and started realizing that i was in a shock till now and i need to slap myself out of it.
I have been foolish ...i haven't been thinking straight ...i was afraid ...not ready and i was confused, the final result was a blame, i was blamed and i think i deserve that. I think i don't have to dislike or hate anyone even if i'm blamed and it doesn't matter if i'm or not worthy to be loved, it really doesn't matter to me anymore because i know that i have done my part of the mistake.
Now i come to think of it, i began understanding that my questions are wrong, easy or not never disregard your past because you will miss the all best times, bitter or not never forget the feelings because they are not born out of despair and that they were once true feelings... simple or not there is no reason not be forgiven because its just a mistake and no one has control on it ... i have done mistakes too.